I miss u.... but.... will it help??？？

yes... I miss him... but , will it do any good to the situation?? because the problem is not with me now... if u miss someone, u love someone.. but he doesnt even appreciate.. does it bring any meaning to your love?

Only now , i started to realize the importance of the appreciation, anything in this world.. if it lost its appreciation from its special something/someone... no matter how valuable or good it is... it is still has no meaning to exist in this world...

maybe he still miss me, maybe he doesn't, but if he really do, but he refuse to do anything ... tat shows my importance in his heart is really not that high... I always believe that if a person can give up a relationship / friendship/ bond just to protect his ego, it means tat... u are no one to this person... coz you are less important than his ego...... it is in fact really disappointed and hurting my heart so bad.. but this time , the pain is not the intense and obvious pain... it is the pain that could drill into the heart slowly  ... and leave the permanent scar in the deepest part of your heart. 

I tried to take care of your feeling, indulge your ego to soar up to the sky, I thought one day you would probably understand all the things I have done to you, hoping I could get the appreciation from you.. but... what I got from you now?? I only get a big give up from you on our bond. I just dun understand how could you just cut off the conversation just like that? without any valid reason, without take care of my feeling, posting all those pictures on facebook, as if you worried that I don't see those "beautiful" pictures you have taken with your hot model... or maybe i really should believe that you are purposely showing it to me.. as a hint to tell me that you have found your special someone...


Honestly.. if that is really what you trying to hint me... I think I will still give my blessing to you... coz I am honest to myself... in the bottom of my heart, i know I am still care abt you, still wish you to be happy.. if that person can bring the happiness to your life... I really don't see why I shouldn't empty out the place , so that your speacial someone could now have more space to step into your life more comfortably. Although, I really hate the way you tell me this, I rather you tell me verbally and clearly.. so that I can get myself ready for the new start of my life. But, anyhow, it happened, so, I can only accept it.. and move on.....

Life is so pathetic, isn't it??  i feel like wanna cry... but I am actually smiling on my face... pathetic, isn't it?? hahahaha.......