I will be better, I will be stronger, but I will not let you turn me to a hater!

Seriously, my heart is aching while I am writing this. All these while, or maybe all these years, I should say, I try to be honest to myself, and to as many people as I can. I give my heart to everyone that I love, and I always believe my efforts will someday be appreciated. Sometimes, no matter how the situation seems unright, I will still tell myself, it is just an obstacle, when we overcome it, everything will be alright. But ironically, none of the occasions turned out to be alright.

I tell myself, I don't wanna store hatred in my life. That's just not what I want for my life. I am a Scorpio, a highly potential hater and I could tell you firmly that I am the ( most ) typical Scorpio on earth. But after all these years of my observation, I noticed that most of the people on earth tend to hypnotize themselves by the characteristics of their star sign. Yes, I agreed with the characteristics pointed out by each star sign. I am Scorpio too as I mentioned earlier, I know jealousy and possessiveness are my biggest problem when it comes to relationship. But I chose to fix them, fix these problems, control my emotion. I wish I could be a man who will try to fix the imperfection of my personality, instead of being a person who lives with the imperfection proudly, and tell the whole world this is who I am.... it is really stupid ,an idiot proclamation in the eyes of mine . It is not hard for you guys to find some people like this in your daily life, people who will tell you that they are Scorpio ( or other star signs ), destined to fill with jealousy and possessiveness, and most of the time, they will only leave you an option of " take it or leave it".

And about this " take it or leave it " thing, it seems to love me so much as I always confront with this offer.  Whenever I try my best to work the relationship out, most of the time I will be offered this option.. " take it or leave it". Yes, it is frustrating, it will pull me down for a period of time, in short, it hurts.

But this is what I realized from some of my recent cases lately --  it could be hurt, it could almost killed you, but you have to hold on, because it is not your fault, you be honest to yourself every single second in your life, so you should be proud of yourself. I am Scorpio, but I will prove to you I can be more than a Scorpio, ( in fact, I am already being more than a Scorpio after all these years of my self-training ), and I will still progress to a better personality. This is all because I don't wanna simply tell people: " I am a Scorpio", shallowly.

I will be better, I will be stronger, but I will not let you turn me to a hater! Thanks for everyone who had ever taught me lesson in my life.